A Therapy called Writing

I have often wondered what drives me into writing.

I routinely ask myself :Am i compelled to write something or the other always, do i plan it, what inspires me, how much i steal and how much is just a narrative of my own experiences camaflouged as humour and fiction. Should i write at all, what if i spare all my friends and enemies the torture of having to keep a track of what i write. Well, i dont have answers. Or i dont seek them. What is mostly true is that i write what i experience and i try to sound humorous. It is most often original stuff, i never steal passages or concepts, but i follow a particular style or author. RKNarayan has always been my inspiration and Graham Greene my mental mentor.

I wanted to write a novel, could never do that for want of ideas and a sustainable narrative. So i stopped writing on Sam's life. I prefer anonymity and i am always muffled by a schizophrenic thought that i would be hurting someone - so i invented the Dateless and Timeless Diary (inspired by RKN's Dateless Diary). There have been many occasions when i have written something and then struck it the following morning.

I love writing. Before the blogs became popular, i used to write on paper and make a collection of my thoughts. My permanent personal baggage includes a dozen pens received as gifts, a number of electronic gadgets and this assortment of thoughts in paper format. I have still not decided whether i should allow myself to read it.